I woke up one day with a diagnosis of schizophrenia. I could not fathom that just like being an addict in Narcotics Anonymous, I also had to learn to believe and accept my disease as a paranoid schizophrenic. “We admitted we were powerless over our addiction, that our lives had become unmanageable”. Please believe it. I know from all of my years of drinking and drugging, self-medicating, I have a lot worse problems than just being a drug addict.
I had to accept my disease and believe that I was really sick. With Narcotics Anonymous meetings and treating my sickness with medication and doctors it has been a long 2 years and 10 months of clean time. Being in and out of hospital situations, my friends, my family, and myself doctors, social workers and other addicts helped to keep me going. Drugs make my disease so much worse. I would never make it not accepting I have schizophrenia. I just wanted to write that down and share it with someone who is sick like me.